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Wednesday, September 05, 2007
Whatever your cross, whatever your pain,
there will always be sunshine, after the rain ....
Perhaps you may stumble, perhaps even fall,
But God's always ready, To answer your call ...
He knows every heartache, sees every tear,
A word from His lips, can calm every fear ...
Your sorrows may linger, throughout the night,
But suddenly vanish, in dawn's early light ...
The Savior is waiting, somewhere above,
To give you His grace, and send you His love...
Whatever your cross, whatever your pain,
"God always sends rainbows .... after the rain ... "
Posted at 05:45 pm by chelsy
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Wednesday, August 29, 2007
This was an email forwarded to me by a friend.. I
don’t know who the author is but I agree with his/her thoughts.. I somehow feel
what the author feels or should I say, I’m a meantime girl in some sense of the
word…
What's a meantime girl?
She's
the one you call when you're bored because she makes you laugh. She's the one
you talk to when you're feeling down because she's willing to lend an ear and
be a friend. She's not the one you call when you need a date to your company's
Christmas party, or to go dancing with on a Saturday night. She's the one you
spend time with between girlfriends, before you find "The One". You
know, the one who you keep around in the meantime.
She's not one of the guys, not a tomboy, but you don't look at her as a
"real" woman, either. She's not bitchy enough, moody enough, or sexy
enough to be seen in that light. She's too laid-back, too easily amused by the
same things your male buddies are amused by. She's too understanding, too
comfortable - she doesn't make you feel nervous or excited the way a
"real" woman does. But she's cool, and nice, and funny, and
attractive enough that when you're lonely or horny and need intimate female
companionship, she'll do just fine. You don't have to wine and dine her because
she knows the real you already, and you don't have any facades to keep up, no
pretenses to preserve. You're not trying to get anything of substance out of
her. She's not easy, but you know that she cares about you and is attracted to
you, and that she'll give you the intimacy you need. And you know you don't
have to explain yourself or the situation, that she'll be able to cope with the
fact that this isn't the beginning of a relationship or that there's any
possibility that you have any real romantic feelings for her. It won't bother
her that you'll get up in the morning, put on your pants, say goodbye, and go
on a date with the woman you've been mooning over for weeks who finally agreed
to go out with you. She'll settle for a goodbye hug and a promise to call her
and tell her how the date went. She's just so cool . . . why can't all women be
like that?!
But deep down, if you really think about it (which you probably don't because
to you, the situation between the two of you isn't important enough to merit
any real thought), you know that it's really not fair. You know that although
she would never say it, it hurts her to know that despite all her good points
and all the fun you two have, you don't think she's good enough to spend any
real time with. Sure, it's mostly her fault, because she doesn't have to give
in to your needs - she could play the hard-to-get bitch like the rest of them
do, if she really wanted to. But you and she both know that she probably
couldn't pull it off. Maybe she's too short, or a little overweight, or has a
big birthmark on her forehead, or works at Taco Bell, or just really not that
type. Whatever the reason, somehow life has given her a lot of really great
qualities but has left out the ones that men want (or think they want) in a
woman. So she remains forever the funny friend, the steadfast companion, the
secret lover, and you go on searching for your goddess who will somehow be
everything you ever wanted in a woman.
You'll joke to her that she should be the best man at your wedding, and she'll
laugh and make a joke about a smelly rental tux.
She doesn't captivate you with her beauty, or open doors with her smile. Mainly
she blends in with the crowd. She's safe. She doesn't want to be the center of
attention and turn the heads of everyone in the room. But she wants to turn
someone's head. She wants to be special to someone, too. We all do.
She has feelings. She has a heart. In fact, she probably has a bigger and
better heart than any woman you've ever known because she's had a front-row
seat to The Mess That Is Your Life, and she likes you anyway. She obviously
sees something worthwhile and redeeming in you because although you've given
her nothing, absolutely no reason to still be around, she is.
Anyway, yeah. I'm a Meantime Girl. Been one more times than I care to admit. I
don't know the reason, really, and at this point I don't even care. I just want
to let every guy know who's ever had the good fortune to have a Meantime Girl
that we may be a lot of fun, but we cry, too. A lot. And someday we won't be
around. ':(
Posted at 11:47 pm by chelsy
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Monday, August 27, 2007
Long time no update…. I’m always a monthly updater
( if there is such a thing as that)… so to get straight to the point…
~ 0o0 ~ 0o0 ~0o0 ~
Moving out update… I’ve been thinking twice this
pass weeks.. I had so many things to consider before finally deciding to move
out of my current place but most important consideration of course is the
budget. Makati Condominiums are too expensive. I’m afraid I might get out of
budget if things might not come to plan. The thought of staying for another 6
months in my current condo is one of the best choices. If I’d go on and move
out, the budget for renting a condo would at least cost 12k/monthly… hmm.. very
difficult decision….
~ 0o0 ~ 0o0 ~0o0 ~
I have been going out a lot lately. Of course I’m
with friends, good friends I may say.. It’s a good thing that I can forget some
of my worries and relax and most of all, enjoy my youth… I think I’m having a
life now :D Last August 5, I was in Bulacan, attending the Dedication and Nahum’s
1st Birthday. I was with Len and after a while we went to Glorietta
to shop till we drop, at least Len did. The next Saturday, August 12, I was
with my x-FCPP officemates. They invited me to join them in Pansol, Laguna. That
was a great night, eating, swimming and having fun with friends.. Then the next
Saturday I was in Laguna again, this time Enchanted Kingdom. It was my first time to
see the place. There were 7 of us. We enjoyed a lot, especially the Space Shuttle,
the Anchor’s Away and the Rio Grande. Boy we were all soaked,
we tried it ba naman for 3 times hehehe. Then this week was meeting up with
College friends, Abby and Enrico. Food trip at Gerry’s Grill and Pizza Hut, my
diet was ruined but it was all worth it :D
~ 0o0 ~ 0o0 ~0o0 ~
Thoughts in mind: Some things happen for a reason.. Some
things happen but you DON’T know what reason is behind.. Sometimes you are
asking for all the reasons why.. but sometimes no answer arrives… Sometimes all
the world is against you, sometimes everything fall outs of places even if you
try SO hard to arrange and fix them… Sometimes you are just so tired of trying
that you tend to stop and just cry watching everything falling apart… Please
help me, someone.. I want to be numb, I don’t want to get hurt anymore… I don’t
want to ask why no more…
Posted at 02:22 am by chelsy
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Wednesday, August 01, 2007
From GOD to me (us):
My child, I hear your prayers.…
If I answer them,
it’s because I’m increasing your faith.
If I delay them,
it’s because I’m increasing your patience, endurance, and perseverance.
If I do not answer them,
wait, for I have something for you,
the best is always for you..
Posted at 11:57 am by chelsy
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Sunday, July 29, 2007
WANTED: STUDIO UNIT FOR RENT
Just to cover up my previous entry that is full of sadness…..
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I'm looking for a new place to stay.. A new life hehehe… Nope, its just that the recent place I was staying is really messed up.. As in no clean water you can bathe with and now no more working elevator to bring me to the 12th floor.. oh my dear.. I have lived in that place for over a year now, and I can go on adjust with the shortcomings of the place… I have my water for bathing delivered for 10 pesos per container (abt 20 gallons).. Actually I eve enjoyed staying there, because when I get inside the room, I can feel the peace within, I can sleep well and I can have the solitude I wanted.. But some things really has to end.. after a year of good and bad experiences, happy and sad moments in that unit.. I finally decided that its time to leave.. I cannot barely ignore the fact that there is no more water delivery in there because no one would want to deliver water to the 12th floor, I cannot barely walk through the stairs up to my room especially when I just got out of work that I so much wanted to take a rest already and I cannot barely took a bath using the water that comes out of the faucet… so now…
PLEASE HELP ME FIND A NEW PLACE TO LIVE!!! I prefer a place in Cityland Pasong Tamo or Cityland Executive Tower 2 in Dela Rosa Street. You might say I'm so "maarte" because I choose to live in a condominium.. let me explain why.. I don't want noisy and crowded places, when I get in to my room, I want a quiet place to stay and sleep.. I don't like living in room for rent's where there are a lot of strangers around you that you have to get along with whether you like it or not, and I don't like living with the landlady or landlord in the house, I'm just not comfortable.. I don't like curfew coz I feel like I'm still at home with my parents and most of all.. I hate gossipers.. I may say I get along well with guy friends and sometimes that friend would fetch me home specially when its past 10pm coming from gimiks.. I have people around looking at me, thinking of whatever they want to think.. In a condominium, at least we have our own lives, nobody messes up with you unless you don't pay your rent or they are actually you're real friends who sometimes drop by and say hello.. so please..
If any of you knows someone who has studio units, I prefer unfurnished for I already have my things and some appliances with me.. Please drop me a line here, a tag maybe.. my budget would be from 7k or 8k, I guess that would always exclude the association fees.. Please please please, I need it by this month of august.. I really liked the studio unit I saw in Makati Executive Tower 2 in Medina cor Dela Rosa St in makati though it was 9500/mo.. mybe you know someone who has less offer for the same location… Please drop a comment or a tag… thanks.. 
Posted at 02:38 am by chelsy
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I missed blogging… I have so many things in my mind, I feel like I'll explode if I won't let this out…
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First, I think I might want to change my blog address and its name… from life is fun to life sucks… I don't have any fun entry in here so why life is fun??? What is so fun about it when all I can see is that life sucks big time.. Seems like you have everything that you didn't exactly need, you never have to try hard on some things that seems so hard to get for somebody else but then again it doesn't make you any happier.. You're a simple person with a simple life but it seems life is giving you the luxurious things you only had in dreams.. the happiness you wish you had is one thing you can NEVER have and doesn't seem to be within your reach in like a life time…
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I returned home to follow that special someone, to win back his heart, to fight for what I used to call MINE.. Now I think I want to leave, no reason for me to stay, my family will be fine without me here and I can better support them if I work abroad. The same reason why I returned, is the same reason why I had to leave, I had to let go, leave everything behind, say goodbye to all the reasons why I hold back.. The easiest way to forget the person dearest to your heart is to say goodbye and never see that person again… Its been years, and I thought I've moved on, I thought "apple of my eye" has thought me to forget that person but it was just for the mean time. In our lives, we always have this Greatest Love and sad to say that our greatest love will be the greatest pain of all. I've almost given up that I can never have my greatest love for this life time…
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Since I think I have no luck in love, and I have all the luck in my career, I think I'll just pursue what is there for me.. To be successful in this career, to be an expert in my IT field, strive soon to be in managerial position, and become rich and have lots of money. I'll buy house and lot, jewelries, travel the world, have fun and leisure or I can be a philanthropist in some way and get old and gray, sharing my brother's children. I'm already giving up hope that I'd get married someday, I can't see myself falling for the right person, either something is not right or something is missing. I am so hard headed and stubborn that when the only person I want to be with all my life is not in love with me anymore, I just can't move on, it has always been pain.. I opened up my heart to someone else, but it was also a mistake for apple is already taken by another eve. Sometime I was thinking.. why does GOD have to give me all this trials and pain?? Am I that strong, does God really think that I can still take this challenges all along,?? Maybe God knows that I still have lots of tears to shed, I still have a lot of sleepless nights to go through, that my heart can still beat even if its broken into million of pieces… I just don't understand why… 
Posted at 02:14 am by chelsy
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Friday, July 13, 2007
I’m updating once again.. hmmm I think I’m getting fond of updating every now and then or maybe I just don’t have much to do at home that I’m updating right now. My schedule allows me to have to four days of, ooohhhh cool!!! Nah not really, if you are single like me and doesn’t have any other business whatsoever to use your time with, you’ll get bored and so bored and bored and wish that you’d get to work soon. Other than having to work for 12 hrs on four straight days, your work week starts at ahhhh from Monday this week then Tuesday next week then Wednesday the next next week.. you still like it? I don’t…
I’ve heard someone say that “if from the very start, you don’t like something, you will not be OBJECTIVE, and will not be open to the good effects of that thing”.. I’m not quite sure if that someone wants to relay that message to me, though I think he should think of that for himself first.. Why can’t you accept the fact the most of the people you are with everyday is not in favor of what you insist. Yeah right!!! You have the power, coz you are in authority but you still don’t have the right to cover your true color. You tell us that we should be thankful that our opinion’s were asked, well THANK YOU but aren’t you just covering up the truth..,. that you, together with the people with your level and above has already decided on this issue, you just want to show that we at least test it and you have got out opinion, but those were just opinion of course…
And so from now on, I won’t speak up knowing that my voice will just be heard but will not be recognized. Oh I forgot, my voice was recognized too, saying that I threaten my colleagues so that they will agree with me hahaha.. I’m not the threatening type, I don’t even have anything to threaten them duh!!!!
HE would just have to be thankful that I’m still composed during that meeting, my tears are almost falling but I still have to be brave even if he already pinpoints me and my name into the meeting… YOU wait and see mister, I’ll have my time for you, you will be sorry you talked to me that way, “Pinahiya mo ko”, wait until I can prove you wrong and your fear about me will come to be your worst nightmare….
Posted at 09:21 pm by chelsy
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Sunday, July 08, 2007
My update today might be a little early in terms of intervals hehehe. I wanted to update yesterday but I got addicted watching Meteor Garden in youtube, yup! You read it right, I just got curious watching it again because of GMA 7’s commercials about having it back on tv. And since my schedule won’t allow me to follow each episode, I tried looking for a tagalog dub in youtube and thank goodness I found one though its only up to episode 8 of part 3 L. Actually it tries to bring back memories, I can remember I was still working in Canlubang in my first job. I just felt being so young and inlove that time J hmm never mind.. seems like love stories never fail to make me smile…
Wildfire tagged me, so I have something below… ooppss before I forget, wildfire, I’m sooo happy now that you’re happy with your fafa Allan hehehe… **wink…
Instructions: Each player starts with 7 random habits/facts about themselves. People who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their seven things, as well as these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose 7 people to get tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them that they have been tagged and to read your blog!
7 things about me
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I’m a hopeless romantic
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I easily get emotional eventually making me cry
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I’m a frustrated flight stewardess
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I often forgot myself when I fall in love
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I look like mataray but I can be nice if I want to Jl
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I love my family too much
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I’m so moody, often times in bad mood
A - Age: 27
B - Band Listening To Right Now: Weird Al Yancovic
C - Career: Systems Engineer
D - Drink or Smoke: drink-occasionally, smoke – NO!
E - Easiest Friends To Talk To: Lu, Len and another Len
G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms: Gummy Bears
H - Have a Boyfriend: no
I - In love: not sure..
J - Junk Food You Like: tortillos (red)
K - Kids: I wish I already have kids..
L - Longest Ride Ever: 8 hr plane ride from Manila to Sydney
N - Names For Your Future Kids: Chelsy Raine, Gabriel
O - One Wish You Have Now: wish I was the wife of the most amazing guy I’ve met
P - Phobias: to be alone
Q - Favorite Quote: "Things happen for a reason"
R - Reasons To Smile: friends, family, memories
S - Sleeping Hours: 12mn-7am
T - Time You Woke Up: 7am
U - Unknown Fact About You: I’m naughty and nice
V - Vegetable You Hate: okra,
W - Worst Habit: bukas na lang...bahala na.. .
X - X-rays You've Had: medical check up because of back pains
Y - Yummy Foods: chocolates, ice cream, cakes, pizza, pasta
Z - Zodiac Sign: Capricorn
tag this one to seven people: Mel Eli, Star, Mark, Cielo, Peach, Fionixe
Posted at 07:07 pm by chelsy
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Monday, July 02, 2007
My shift is almost over… already 5am and I'll be out by 7am going back home to the province for another 4 day vacation (if that's what you call days off)… Have watched 3 movies, well technically its only 2 whole movies, 12 hours have been such a long shift. I was like planning to make some handouts for some UNIX overview whatever, but I get too lazy again. I also wanted to read some UNIX stuff to review for whatever but I got TOO lazy again and again and again…. Arrggg… I'm always like this, never get to do what I think is right coz I'm lazy and sleepy…
I'm good at planning, Yes! Iam very good at it but never on working at it… Now I'm blogging, after months of not updating my poor blog… One of the best things that I pretty much express myself well is in here, in this blog. A mirror of me, of my life, of what I feel, of my love, of happiness and stress…
I'm stressed out, I don't know why.. I can't say its work that's causing me to be restless coz I don't do anything good at the office for months now. I never really feel my worth. I might be loveless??? Or missing someone??? I might be thinking about moving to a new place, I mean new place as in country… But I'm not confident enough to go and find a job again… I feel like I don't have what it takes to be paid for what I was asking… I can do something about it but why wouldn't I do it??? Simply because I'm lost again.. from where, from what.. I DON'T KNOW!!!
I wanted to cry for lost time, I'm wasting too much time ever since I went back in this country for very WRONG reasons which I realized just now that I made a BIG fool out of myself for thinking that going back is a good move L I can't bring back time.. I don't want to regret my decision a year ago for I wont be able to meet the friends I knew, great friends I must say… Or go to Australia for 2 short but lovely weeks… Or I won't meet that someone who for a short time made me smile the sweetest smile… I can imagine him saying "O nanonood ka na naman ng movie, eto ang print out, magreview ka na lng". Dinaig ang professor sa pagkastrict hahaha… Or maybe I just have to regret everything, so I won't have to feel sad and hurt over and over again…
Sometimes I hate June, July and August.. I just noticed that during this months, I'm always alone and useless… I went to church yesterday at Greenbelt. After the mass I saw this lady get a rolled paper in a basket labeled "God's message for you today" so I thought I'd get one myself.. It says: "If anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new." 2 Cor 5:17 The believer in Christ does not have a new lease on life he has an entirely new life". Would that mean that God is suggesting that I get a life, or leave the past behind or have a new life??? Well lets see…
Posted at 06:53 am by chelsy
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Friday, May 25, 2007
I want to update before my work week ends…
Next week, we’ll have a new work place, we’re moving to the 41st floor but on the same building. The place was too high, the first time I went there for a visit, it was night time and I felt like it shook when the wind blew. Waaaa what more if there’s a typhoon; I think I’ll panic… Though I don’t have much choice to stay here at the 16th floor, I have packed my things up.. so sad L I’ll surely miss this place, for almost 11 months that I’ve worked in this company, I had so many memories of this place but life is moving forward and I should do the same too… Besides I really should leave the memories behind, they were happy and sad, they’ll be in my heart but leaving this place means a new beginning for me… I won’t have to always remember my past with “apple of my eyes”…
“apple” I think is doing good wherever he is now, I wish him success and happiness and new place he can rent hahaha, he is finding it hard to find a place to stay in his new country… I miss him terrible but, I can never change a thing of reality… so here I am, keeping up the fight to move on gracefully, yeah, that’s my girl!!!!
I’m chatting right now with one of my best buds Len. We’re planning for a beach outing but I might be for single women like me and her, no boys allowed.. It’s like sharing the same thoughts and feeling, not having to feel sorry for yourself because each of us shares the same sentiments. I’m thinking of inviting my two other single girlfriends (do I have to add the adjective heart broken?). We’re thinking of Coco Beach or Eagle Point or La Luz? Depends on the budget hehe… I can’t wait for June 16, tentative date of “gimik”. Then after that we plan to go to Baguio, yahoo!!! I went there when I was like 5 years old, so I better see it again… Then we want to go to Quezon, she says there a nice place there… Lots of place in mind huh… We just want to have fun while we are single, who knows, one of us or both get married soon (I wish!!!)… I’m so EXCITED…. Yiheee….
Posted at 06:47 am by chelsy
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