Somebody gave me this nice cutey earrings… thanks Gel.. I really appreciate the effort and the thought J… ganda noh, cute ng butterfly.. If gusto nyo din, sasabihin ko sa friend ko, you can buy from them hehe... Sya kac gumawa nyan, that's why I treasure it more..

"I was dancing in the dark with strangers, no love around me" --- a line from the song "Every Woman in the World" by Air Supply…. Exactly what I feel right now… oh well, senti mode cguro ako ngaun kaya wag na lng paapekto…

Finally moving out of my current condo, I'm moving forward yey!!! Yesterday we or should I say "I" have signed 1 year contract of tenancy to a new place I will call 2^nd home from now on. It's a studio unit again cause that is all I can afford from my small salary… besides only me and my brother will stay there so ok na rin and the place is just 1 ride to the office and no problem when it comes to water supply hehehe… Gastos! Pero I think I will like it there, its quiet and clean… We'll be moving in starting next week… I won't have to clean up na rin cause last nght they already did the cleaning, I requested kac that before I sign the contract and pay them the advances, I should see that the place is clean, demanding ako e hehehe… So pano?? House warming na!!!!

Bro have already decided about his career's future… It would be a major major change for him.. But I think he will learn to be independent, he should be, his already 25 yrs old… Before, I always thought that my bro is so dependent of me, always "ate pano to?, ate, pautang!, ate, kaw na bahala., ate, ikaw magdecide, ate, libre" and its very often that I tell him what to do and how to decide on things… I thought he was the only one dependent on me, un pala, I was dependent on him too… I'm happy about his decision, finally seeing him get more mature and of course it's for his future, career growth for him, but deep inside my heart, I'm sad. Dependent din pala ako sa kanya… takot din pala ako mag isa.. Mas ok talaga na ako ung aalis kesa sya ang aalis… I'm worried he might not adjust or baka mahirapan sya ng husto, malayo kami to help him, when he needs us we won't be there in just a click. We can't be there in a 3hr bus ride, 3 hr plane ride pa cguro. I really love my bro, kahit madalas kami mag-away kahit minsan kontrabida kami sa buhay ng isat isa… Oh well.. he still have a month to back out… whatever his final decision might be.. baka nga ihatid ko pa sya dun.. but ooopss mukhang tinalo ko pa mama namin sa pag-aalala hehehe… to you bro, if ever ud read this: "Love kita.. this will be a good opportunity to learn and be independent but always remember that when things gets rough, d2 lng c ate, kahit puntahan pa kita sa pupuntahan mo pero kayanin mo muna bago ka mag inarte ok hehehe…"

Senti pa rin ako, pero atleast alam ko kung saan ako lulugar…

October 2 na.. I wasn't able to create an entry about the Healing priest, Fr. Faller. I just need the inspiration to make the entry as nice as I can…

Though now I'm creating a post…. I think I really need to create one… I have many things on my mind, ang gulo ng utak ko ngaun…

I'm so lucky… Nahold-up ako last Sunday night. Oh well, ganda ng pasok ng October 1, A big amount of money was lost, my celfon and all my IDs are in my bag. Now I had to pay for everything to get those new atm cards, and Company IDs and badges, wont forget SSS and driver's license.. ang saya db.. Nakakatakot pala.. Now, I would always fear to go out in the streets alone especially at night. Sosyal ang mga walanghiya, naka-scooter pa.. But I think they don't have the balls to be a man… Biruin mong 2 pa sila para nakawan ako.. Gosh.. very traumatic, d lng ako nagpapahalata sa mga taong malapit sa akin pero sama talaga ng pakiramdam nun, I don't want to see that place anymore, but I was thinking of facing my fears, maybe I'll do that, but not now. That event is just another proof that life is so precious, I fought for my bag, instinct cguro un, cause I know I have many valuables there but when I heard the guy in the scooter saying "Pare saksakin mo na kung d pa rin ibigay". Nung marinig ko un, nanghina ako, natumba nya ako sa kalsada, I had to fight for my dear life kesa ilaban ung bag ko… Nasugatan ako ng patalim nya at may mga pasa ngaun pero Thanks be to GOD.. ganun lng ang nangyari sakin, I wouldn't know if things get worst, mas masakit cguro ung nag-aalala ung mga taong mahal ko at malapit sa akin… So guys and gals, always take care especially during the times that you are alone and in places na walang tao at madilim. Marami nang masasamang tao ngaun. I wasn't able to see their faces but I know that there is karma… Bahala na ang langit sa kanila… I have to move forward… Iniisip ko na lng, may mas magandang mangyayari sa akin kaya nangyari un… GO GIRL!!!!, always be positive…

I'm happy… but I still have a lot of fears… Dagdag pa ung nangyari sakin na holdapan… I have a lot of friends who loves and cares for me, and I love them too… Of course they know I cared a lot for them too. Friends are treasures in life that noone will ever take away from us because they stay in our hearts… Thanks to all of you.. Thanks also to this newly found friend whom I appreciate every effort he exerts… I may not be very expressive, maybe because I have a lot of fears, but you don't know how thankful I am… Masakit pa rin ung anti-tetano sa braso ko pero thanks for being there nung ini-inject un sa akin… Just so you know, I'm here for you…

So pano yan… WANTED: BOYFRIEND!!! Este WANTED: NEW HOUSE pala.. hehehe.. kac naman need ko na lumipat lalo na nangyari un sa akin… gastos na naman… I'll go for now… Magpapagawa pa ng affidavit of loss, susme… again, thanks sa lahat ng concern for me… LOVE KO KAU!!!!

I want to post an entry,, I really want to.. despite the fact that I'm sleepy, feel like vomiting and so dizzy… And so busy here at the office din pala.

What I want to tell you about was my extraordinary experience on Fr. Faller's healing. Such a different but wonderful feeling being healed. I don't have any physical sickness, well nothing critical as cancer or whatever, Thank you Dear Jesus!, but I think I'm emotionally and spiritually sick. So I went there with my family and relatives to Fr. Faller's visit at our town. Actually I want to post all that happened in details, so that I won't ever forget it. But right now I won't be able to that.. I'm really so sleepy, its 4:30 in the morning na kac. So I hope I'd feel better tomorrow so that I'll be more inspired to share to all of you that wonderful thing with the Holy Spirit.. yey!! Banal ako ngaun.. kahit praning ako, I always wanted to be good, I'm trying so hard…

***For some who have read this post already.. you might wonder why some part of this post were missing… Sorry my friends, I had to delete this part of the post as per request of a friend, as in friend ha, hindi yan Showbiz friends.. I don’t usually give in to what other people might say or think about what I do but I’m doing this for “WORLD PEACE”!!! Nyahaha feeling Ms. Universe ituuu.. sabay kaway pang-Ms.U ulit.. “Paalam”.. Hope everybody’s happy now.. ***

Masipag c Rachel mag-post ngaun, 3 days kaseng wala ulit  pasok kaya for sure tatamarin  na mag open ng pc sa bahay..

Actually I'm a little lazy pa nga posting today but this day seemed to be memorable to me. It's been a year since I had the chance to step on the Land of Down Under, yup, Australia. I remember that was Sept 23 almost 8PM when the airplane left NAIA for an 8 hour journey to Sydney. We arrived 6AM, Sunday, Sept 24 at the airport. I and my colleagues will be there for a 2 week training sponsored by our company. We stayed at The Medina, Wiloughby Road. I have dreamed of going to that country ever since I was a child and it came true 1 year ago.. Now, do I have to dream again of going there?? I was so in love with Sydney, the place seems so romantic for me, I don't know why. I feel like love is all around that city, exagge ba? If I'd be given another chance to come back, I'll grab it, mabilis pa sa alas quatro.. I had special memories there hehehe… I was thinking that the loveliness of the place pushed me to think of having a special someone among my colleagues hahaha.. malandi… Anyways.. I really had the time of my life in there… Here's a pic…. (sorry medyo malabo, yan kac favorite ko na pic)

Before I go back home, I visited my Titas and Titos in Canberra, stayed there for 3 days, then head back to Sydney for my flight back to Manila on Oct 10. If you want to see more of my pix there, of course with my colleagues just visit them here, in here-too and in Canberra. I had 3 albums kac at my multiple account for that special place. Don't get too surprised why I'm the only girl in the pictures, I'm the only lady in our team, that's why, I'm always one of the boys…

Oh Sydney, dear Sydney, wait for me, I'll be back, promise…. Hopefully with a special someone na J

My night shift is almost done.. Just waiting for my teammate to arrive. I have to catch the mass at Greenbelt at 7:15am. I was supposed to sleep 4:00 AM till 6:00Am but I got hooked reading a cute blog of a mom about her daughter, Poch ang ina mo . Her daughter is so sweet and very smart. I wish that if I'd have a child, ganun din kakulit at ka-smart. I've always wanted a baby girl pa naman…. Oh well… I forgot that I should find a boyfriend first pala hehehe…

My driving lesson was finished. Thank heavens I didn't bump into anything. I'm more relaxed on that second day, I even took our car for the last 2 hours of the lesson, made me feel more comfortable. Now my mama bugs me of having to practice driving every free time I have.. I really hate driving actually, feels sooo comfy as a passenger..

I think, me and my X are now friends, I think so, we had a little chat yesterday and we seemed so cool about having to talk about his relationships and my guy interests, after all, his my bestfriend remember.. cool huh… J

Magda-drive ako hanggang batangas… so pls pls turuan nyo ako magdriiive!!!!

Natural hanggang batangas ako magda-drive kac taga-Batangas ako noh hahaha… And yes my friends, I’ve had my first driving lessons today.. It’s 5 hours of tutorial and driving to the corners of Batangas. Honestly, I was just pushed to enroll, no choice I guess, no one will drive our car if my brother nor Tatay is not at home, no strolling to mall for me during my day offs… My mama was the first to pursue on this, ang kulit!!! Anyways.. I went through it today and continue until tomorrow.. Driving was fine but I guess its never that easy.. You always have to focus focus and focus… Other than I’m slow in changing gears and positioning my feet, I always miss staying on my lane and goodness my engine is always tuned off… I’m afraid to bump the other cars during traffic, I hate it, my heart pumps so fast, faster than my feet shifting from the breaks and the accelerator and maintaining the cluch, arrggg…

Well tomorrow is another adventure for me.. 5 more hours of driving and listening to my instructor “left, no gas, half break, change gear to 3,  ok, full clutch..” I just hope tomorrow I’d do better…  

I'm here at the office, last day of a week's shift. Listening err watching you tube. I dunno what came into my mind why I looked for air supply songs.. Bringing me to this song – Every Woman in the World—Of course Air supply is a very good band, they are what you call "all time favorites". I have my ever favorite Air Supply song – I want to give it all but Every woman just made me senti.. I wish I could be the Every woman in the world of the man I love or I will love.. It's just that I'm not in any relationship as of the moment, actually for 2 years now. I just feel so loved by that song, if a man would tell me I am every woman in his world, makes me feel so special and needed. Makes me feel my worth.. I  guess I was always looking for that in a man because if your man won't know your worth/importance in his life I guess he can always just let you go…. Or maybe, just maybe I was also looking for that Every man in the world to me.. my fantasy and my reality, everything I need….

I wish I could post the video here but too bad I can't, so here is just the link…. Every Woman in the World

So instead of the video, I'll just post the lyrics, yey!!!

Every Woman In The World
Artist(Band):Air Supply

(Dominic Bugatti, Frank Musker)

Over night scenes, dinner and wine
Saturday girls
I was never in love, never had the time
In my hustle and hurry world
Laughing myself to sleep, waking up lonely
I needed someone to hold me, oh

It's such a crazy HOME? town, it can DRAG you down
Till you run out of dreams
So you party all night to the music and lights
But you don't know what happiness means
I was dancin' in the dark with strangers
No love around me, when suddenly you found me, oh


(Chorus)

Money! Money…

I'm a little embarrassed to say that I do not know how to fill-up a check!!! Hahaha… I've opened a checking account last month for the purpose of paying monthly Condo rental. But since I did not pursue the idea of moving to a more expensive condo unit, I haven't used the check book not until tomorrow. I would have to pay our car's insurance bill through PDC. I was suppose to ask the agent if I can pay her in-cash for 3 months but she insisted of having PDC instead. And since I already got myself a checking account, I'm so cool to say "Ok, no problem!". The thing is that on Monday I will have to give her the check that lead me to thinking "I haven't filled up any checks before!!!" Waaaaa I wonder how I'd fill up the check correctly hehehe… So embarrassing huh??? Good thing old google has some answers and tips.. And so here goes, filling up my first check… Wish me luck, hope I have put the right info in their proper fields haha!

Of love, engagement and getting married..

I dunno if its coincidence but 2 of my closest girl friends have popped me some wedding surprises. The first one was like telling me that she will get married middle of next year.. Was so excited to hear that their plan of tying the knot have come a little early.. yiheeee… The next one surprised me by messaging me using ym id of her X, turned out they were together again and asking me to be a witness in their forth coming civil wedding I guess this coming January.. whewwww.. I'm so happy for her, knowing he is the only guy she wished to be with all her life.. and I really wish this time it would push through (they had about 100 times planning already and never get through, peace ganda)… So what a night it was… so happy for my friends, they were so excited and I can feel how happy they are. This is life… sooner or later all your girl friends will say good bye to being single and yes, I guess my list of godsons and goddaughters will be longer than ever… I'm just afraid of being left alone… no more buddies to go shopping and going places (well except my mom whose always been waiting for me to take her with me shopping)..  To both of you guys, cheers and best of life and LOVE… and to me?? Good luck!!! Hehehe…

can we be crazy over a person yet not inlove with them?? baka insane ang tamang term

CRAZY OVER YOU – 112

I fell in love with you,
twas' like a dream come true,
and my love for you will never end, oh no.
It was such a special night.
You lay right by my side,
and I told you things I'd never tell a soul.
And now that I have you baby babe.
I promise I'll never leave (never leave).
Cause' you're the only one that makes my life complete.
And I'm...
crazy over you, I don't know what to do,
I'm crazy over you,
yeah oohh...
And I'm crazy over you,
I don't know what to do,
I'm crazy over you...
ohh girl...
A love that never ends.
You're more than just a friend,
and my heart n soul, I'll always give to you.
The only in my life.
Someday you'll be my I’ll be ur wife, ( I wish!!!)

and I'll be with you until the end of time.
And now that I have you baby babe.
I promise I'll never leave, (never leave)
cause' you're the only one,
that makes my life complete.
And I'm...
I'm crazy over you,
I don't know what to do,
I'm crazy over you,
And I'm...
I'm crazy over you,
I don't know what to do,
I'm crazy over you.
It doesn't matter what you say or do.
For I love you,
and I know you love me too
oh...
Love me, (ooh..)
Kiss me, (ooh..)
And hold me in your arms.
That's we know you're crazy for me,
and I'm crazy over you.
(I told you) And you know, you know, you know...
(I told you, I will never leave you) never leave...
because you're the only one, to make my life complete
that's why I'm crazy.
I'm crazy over you,
I don't what to do,
I'm crazy over you...